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Thursday, January 26, 2006 { 5:14 pm } ;
0 repliescheck out my nephew at
http://www.flickr.com/photos/one_knee/ or
http://community.webshots.com/user/one_knee3
Dear Rayn,I was expecting you to be out on Fri but i'm so happy you didn't! I have been anticipating for your arrival for 2 weeks since my sis got her tummy aches. I'm so glad you're here now. I woke up in shock with a horrible headache but i was all smiles when your aunt mentioned the news. My house suddenly seemed brighter at 6 in the morning. I seemed to be the most anxious one as i called my granny to inform her the news. I was the one probing your grandma questions to when we could see you. I came without a gift, but you were there with one-your presence. I couldn't take my eyes off you though i gave you no hug. My mum says you look like me when i was a baby, just that i had darker skin and yellow jaundice and a flat nose. We have the same eyes though. Small, slitted and unequal. But i still love you babe. More than i love myself.Now i'm wishing you could grow up fast so i can teach you things. Like how to hit the ping pong ball, score a 3-pointer, dance to a good beat, listen to Oasis or simply be a winner my dear. I'll dress you up as Adam Brody, and probably curl your hair a lil too. We'll have you look preepy one day, and dress you up to be cool another. Oh Boy! I can't wait! But i'll just let time pass for now and watch you grow. =DLove,Your Aunt Wany
Monday, January 23, 2006 { 10:16 pm } ;
0 repliesquick update
my sis gave birth to a healthy baby boy weighing 3kg. tats kinda heavy for a small bump on my sis. aniwae he's got a freaking cool name -
Rayn Irfan Bin Mohamad Ifanos. his nick will be rayn as in Ryan the character in OC. but act rayn is the name of one of the gerbang syurga. cool shit eh? jus sad tat he doesn have a mohamad in front.
i'll cont tmr with pics of my first nephew. oh gosh! i'm officially an aunty! =))
need to nurse my horrible headache now.
toodles.
Sunday, January 15, 2006 { 12:16 am } ;
0 repliesit wasnt the first time that happened. but he said it in a nicer way.
or was i so used to it that it didn really matter anymore.
he didn have to say it, i see them everyday,
in the mirror or my pictures.
he was vague, but definately cruel.
if the old me was still around, i would have just broke down in tears.
but i'm stronger now and ur words of defence made me tougher.
there's 2 sides in ur speech
but i'm touched u spoke up.
i'm really thankful for tat.
for all i managed to do was shrug & walk away.
u've been honest most times,
i appreciate tat.
but today, i saw u in a different light...
i've found myself a true friend.
or issit part of a play?
Saturday, January 14, 2006 { 12:36 am } ;
0 repliesmy answer: No.
wat a line for Miss Singapore Universe. kinda cocky dun u think?
but its always interesting to look through pics of ppl u noe and suggesting that they'll take part in it cos they're pretty. i've done that quite a few times cos i noe some of my frens are worth the crown & money.
This time round, i tot of BK. i mean she's got the looks & personality.
Then i saw the criteria.
Age: 18-27
Height: At least 1.65m she so dun fit the height criteria. she's like wat? 1.61m? i remember her telling me she
shrunk. at
25? tats scary alright.
too bad la bk, u cant join. haha. but i'm so gonna suan her thru tis. hehehehe.
you are the sunyou are the only onemy heart is truemy heart is true for ube minebe minebe my little rock & roll queenrock&roll queen-the subways
musicfromtheoc mix5
Thursday, January 12, 2006 { 1:15 am } ;
0 repliesoh fuck.
i'm high on...adrenaline???
muahahaha..
i finally got to play the DTX Mania in my lappie. Its the drum game based on the archade one. cool huh? i was giggling to myself silly when i finally got the hang of the game. but its not as if i can score very well. the program keep giving me an E! but hell. i find it fun, in a way.
moreover, truth be told, i'm glad there's news to be shared & heard. okies. gonna hit the hay after an eventful day.
Wednesday, January 11, 2006 { 11:10 pm } ;
0 repliesi have no idea why i came up with this. think its kinda silly actually. haha..
i dun think ppl wld get wat the sinful act is. hahaz. u'ld probably take tis as one of my lamest jokes.
the sin: eat (too much)lust: hunger(thesaures says so. hehez)but its fucking true! i've put on weight! though i dunno how much so but its obvious in my pics! my cheeks are like chubby like buns?! gosh. i need to watch my food.
i so love cheryl for taking my side for me (& herself) to go on a diet. she, too, thinks that my weight is heavy for my height. & she gave me tips la-eat fruits instead of carbs. & i gave me some too-drink more water cos it'll keep u full.
but i cant resist the nasi briyani, ayam masak masala & dalcha my mum cook for the festives yesterday.
tomorrow, i tell myself. i'll go on with the diet tomorrow. yeah right.
lies.
the lies keep spinning.
to cover the previous lies.
truth is little to none.
i prey on believers.
i suck on their trust.
god, help me.
pls save me.
-jeez
i think its kinda weird tat i keep seeing reza nowadays. esp on the days i met my other crushes.
first was at tamp linkway. he was with hana. i was rushing but i stopped to say hi. hana's a nice girl actually. reza'a the bitch.
second was at white sands. i was on the second floor and i saw him with his sis on ground floor. i thought tat it'ld be silly of me to shout down so i carried on walking.
the most recent was on mon. nisah & another girl too. showed off his saints shirt. like i didn noe already.
i think its weird cos when i was crazy bout him, i never see him. totally none. guess i'm really over him now. hahaz. but he's still cute. he's a bitch though.
Tuesday, January 10, 2006 { 11:36 pm } ;
0 repliescant believe my younger cuz gossiped bout another cuz with an in-law. not saying tat its bad or anything but tat was the first time i hear a gossip bout a family member during a gathering. and it was deep. totally. i kinda wished i hadn joined in the gossip cos i noe they could be gossiping bout me or my family next. the gossip was bout an older cuz who got married recently and suddenly had a baby. when the birthday of the child was known, it got everyone curious and eventually became a topic for the conversation jus now. i'm so sure everyone had thought of it, discuss bout it within their own family and then kept mum. so the bitching, of course, was done behind their backs. & i'm so sure many have bitched bout my family. for the wrong reasons of course. my paternal side can be sick, really.
but my granny's was fun. we watched pon2 and got me so engrossed i didn go home earlier as planned. i kinda feel low bout tat but i dun always visit my granny so i should stay longer u noe. anyway, the story is as complicated as ever. i was like discussing the storyline with my distant cuz all the way-where's meriam?where's maria?who's laila?why's the bonshee chasing the baby? thank god the humming didn get stuck to my head for as long as the first movie did. its scary, really.
my uncle sany was back by evening and he made good fun of my granny. esp when he demonstrated her talking to a person but looking elsewhere. it was hilarious!
and fuck! everyone said i've put on weight. they saw no changes in my body (they jus didn see my tummy), but i've got chubbier(is there such a word?). i need to watch my diet man.
& double fuck! my cuz-in-law thinks tat i'm older than my 2nd sis. she said i have a matured look. tats bad. tat totally suck. but if tats gonna get me into a club, hell, i'll be ecstatic.
Monday, January 09, 2006 { 11:24 pm } ;
0 repliesit seems tat the more i know bout u, the distant we get.
i believe i've disappointed u, but it feels weird.
maybe u dun realise tat i'm lost; tat i still need guidance.
time. jus give me time.
Wednesday, January 04, 2006 { 3:54 pm } ;
0 replies
FINALLY WOKEN -jem
I've been thinking ?bout things
For a long while
I'm feeling so calm
I've got a big smile
I have a view of the sun
Right over the sea
And now I can feel
Life is flowing through me
You see
I've finally woken
From a long sleep
I'm ready to jump
To make that blind leap
Coz I now believe
I have the power in me
I've got the faith baby
I can truly be free
Finally Woken
Finally Woken
Child don't worry it's ok
The sun is out for another day
And I say it'll be alright[be alright]
Today's the first day of therest of your life
Remember, remember,remember this, remember
Child don't worry it's ok
The sun is out for another day
Today's the first day of the rest of your life
And I say it'll be alright[be alright]
Remember, remember,remember this, remember
Finally Woken[I've got a big smile/I feel good]
Finally Woken[someone's shining on me]
Finally Woken[I've got a big smile/I feel good]
Finally Woken[someone's shining on me]
And I say it'll be alright, be alright
And I say it'll be alright, be alright fuck.
i hate science.
all cos of my facilitator. fucking shithole. i'm just gonna fuck off for the next lesson.
on a lighter note, people should really open up their eyes to see the spelling of the word they're reading. its hemoGLOBIN! not GOBLIN! its 2 fucking different words with different meanings la shit!
i'm back in sch ppl! back to my normal life? Nah. things are different now, somehow. it doesn feel so welcoming anymore, or has it ever? i still get along well with my class but my girls..it feels so weird. i dunno. i jus gave up on them. IVP's next week. i'm not doing well; individually & on the team. hell. i'll jus leave it to fate. may we be blessed with good luck.
carney has a funny way of expressing himself whenever he sings silently to the song he's listening to. its weird & definately comical. i always have to look away to prevent myself from laughing out loud in front of him.lol
nina's back safely from hk yest! & good news awaited her back at home on her iMac. hahaz. actually tats jus for confirmation la. hahaz. i'm just happy for her.
there's so many things on my mind now. finance especially. urgh! i need to get my organizer done to help keep things simple as it should be. darn.
time, where have u gone? keep me close to u.
