sports. netball. avalanche. ausKISS
the usual usuals. bedtime stories.
my charlie's angels.
obk. aunty nanny.
adam brody. beckham.
pretty boys. funny geeks. & sexy bald men.
limegreen. lavender. orange.
black & white. retro.
fluent english. psychology.
my digi camera. pixels of my life.
i'm in pink today hot pink & everyone knows how much i hate the colour but i thought the effort is cos i'll be going out it's my only off day for this week or rather for the remaining school weeks and it doesn't help that my phone is down & i didn't bring the charger so i can hardly reach anyone to ask out
so i'm gonna have to date myself again? like what i did yesterday, in a way
my friend hidayah said something that made me laugh out so loud.
dude was shocked when hidayah cursed f-uck & she replied, "u think people who wear tudung cannot curse ah?"
i've been successful so far to reduce my cursing habit but it's also because i haven't been feeling much emotions lately i'm pretty dead in a way, dead boring too. no pun intended, i find myself to be very boring now there's no excitement in my life nothing to look forward to but just to complete the day with a good sleep & i don't see this as a good thing honestly
i haven't got any temptation to drink or club even when i was at beatnik picnic last friday & kelvin asked me to join him & vernon to dbl O tis wed if i do go, it's only because i wanna hang out with them
Jeremy: The right one hasn't come along. I think you're brave. No, I'm serious. Most people need to be with someone. They can't wait to fall in love because they're afraid of being alone. I think it takes courage to resist to be with someone just for the sake of being with someone.
fyp presentation is OVER!! time to let my hair down, partyy & catch up on some sleep
working later, maybe going for drinks after tat cos it's melvyn's last day at work. beatnik party tmr night at smu green, gonna watch hoovey perform in bloco (like finally!). river cruise in the day on saturday & cousin's bdae bbq at night. river cruise the whole day on sunday.
wednesday la.. then will i be free to relax!
damn it. finish presentation at 3.20, still stuck in class at tis time! i wanna buy the vcd of THE LEAP YEARS!!! :D
the sky was so pretty at dusk today if only i had a camera or a good phone with me!
i'm getting a new phone, for sure this time here's my choices: htc diamond (so pretty! :D)
Samsung F480
& samsung omnia
let's discuss... i love htc diamond's design, so slim, so sleek, so pretty! samsung F480 is as small & slim as diamond but it's not a pda so there's no wifi so it's the cheapest among the rest samsung omnia is somewhat the same as diamond in features but it's much longer/bigger than the diamond both samsung phones have a camera of 5 mega pixels, diamond is of only 3.5 mega pixels samsung phones have got external memory, diamond only internal
so i'm lost at which to choose of course the cheapest would be the F480 but i guess having a pda would help since my lappie sucks i'm thinking of either design, speed of processing, size or memory space can someone give me some light in this?
i'm so glad my menses came yesterday although it came at a bad timing like during my tour & it rained while i was doing the cruise for fireworks! it would have been perfect if i didn't have to freeze in the rain
dino & heather now knows i'm a self-entertainer cos i was jumping up & down trying to warm myself up & i was singing along with the NDP songs that we had to play while waiting for the fireworks la shouldn't tainers in ducktours be wacky ie random/crazy? haha.
avalanche bbq was good i mean the food was served by the guys who were actually invited for the club's gathering & the food was really good, plus it was halal. HAHA i guess peili was upset i didnt stay longer to eat more cos there were so much leftovers! but fyp laa.. did it at macs till like 7am wanted to nap then go to the padang for the shape run my heart wanted to be there, but my body was too tired
mummy had to wake me up like 3 hours aft tat to run some errands! & i was told my uncle was admitted to CGH for stroke man, i felt really bad hearing the news he's one of the nicest among all in my dad's side he was the one who taught me how to ride the vespa in kampung when i was 13 in fact, he was my pillion for tat ride & he gave me support when i was working with 'giants' i didn't noe wat to say when we were in his ward u should see how happy he was when he saw rayn but the silly boy was too shy to salam him at first when he finally did before we left, my uncle was smiling widely to the left & managed a short giggle cos rayn said he'll pray for my uncle but he said out the prayer for before food! :)
many a time, i've wondered why do i really deserve such treatment? i tried to make amends i dunno how u saw it as i just dun want to lose a friend it doesn't hurt anymore it's just sad to see how things are now you grace me with your cold shoulder as if there was revenge you need to feel i just dunno how to make it all better
I have a problem with tardiness & I must get rid of it quickly before it takes a toll on my pocket. HAHA
I volunteered to help out at the Shape Run Carnival to help give out their tags and their shirts Though I started off hating the fact that I’m giving out the shirts that I wanted for my own, it was quite fun at the event despite the fact that I was the only one from dses, and I’ve completed my points (I’m selfish, I know) But the people were fun la! My partner was this girl who has a unique name but I forgot what it was :p
& I was surprised to see familiar names on the list I was checking out the mistakes I made with the tags when I saw ong bee kee on the list Year of birth seemed to be right so I messaged to ask Little did I know that another senior, dawn, was running too! & after awhile I searched for Dr Tan swee kheng’s name since she was mentioned in the article on preparation for the run Meiqi & Dawn came with Evie and a friend and they’re all doing 10km, against Dr Tan I was hoping to see the latter since she left a few months ago, but I was just unlucky & I also saw tat women’s arch rival who used to be her close friend She didn’t know who I am so I just watched her from afar
& honestly, SLM people are quite fun la Very easy-going and crazy too I ended up going shopping with carol and shu ting since dawn they all had to rush for their show in tamp & I spent on a top and a very nice green dress from topshop since carol gets discounts And she’s really random and wacky la Another Libran that I can get along with! & to think that this is the second time we got to work with each other. Haha I just think it’s so cool. Haha
& I’m happy I chose not to get high on booze Even though it was a great offer for free drinks with lex whom I should catch up with I find no reason to get high on anything except the love I share for my friends & shopping too! hehehe.
here's something i call fate? i finally found my notebook after 5 months i thought there would be some notes on my fyp that i could include in but the only things i wrote were my resolutions for this year & my emotions
my resolution includes joining the Shape run, getting my BEC & my driving license by this year, & increasing my GPA to a min 3.5. to be honest, the only one that is somewhat halfway done is my license! i was late in signing up for Shape run cos 8,000 people did so within 9 days after announcement : but i signed up to help out for their bazaar tmr at marina square as a consolation for me. heh & this semester sucks so i'm not looking at my grades now :(
BUT i also wrote what i don't need which is 1) a relationship 2) a holiday 3) an extra job & i can only assure you that i'm not considering no.1 as much as the rest in fact, i have gone for a holiday & planning for another or even 2 trips! MONEY MONEY MONEY! where's my cert?? :
dated 180208 was a long poem along with some song titles and honestly, he should have read this rather than the notes cos this was meant more for a friend i bumped into my idol on court just now or rather, she bumped into me then my chest hurt, so weird
i'll keep you as my little secret my letter & love notes
ACHES! on my quads, my biceps & my ribs i'm still deciding whether to go for avalanche training or not my push factor is obk of course but i'm aching all over, & my fyp report & i wanna shop.. though i dunno how much i'm left with plus there's 1.2k for FISAF cert in consideration
So I look in your direction, And you pay me no attention do you? I know you don't listen to me, Cos you say you see straight through me, Don't you?
But on and on, From the moment I wake, To the moment I sleep, I'll be there by your side, Just you try and stop me, I'll be waiting in line, Just to see if you care
Oh, did you want me to change? Well I'd change for good, And I want you to know that you'll always get your way And I wanted to say
Don't you shiver Don't you shiver I'll sing it loud and clear And I'll always be waiting for you So you know how much I need you, But you never even see me do you? And is this my final chance of getting you?
But on and on, From the moment I wake, To the moment I sleep, I'll be there by your side, Just you try and stop me, I'll be waiting in line, Just to see if you care
Did you want me to change? Well I'd change for good, And I want you to know that you'll always get your way And I wanted to say…
Don't you shiver Don't you shiver, I'll sing it loud and clear Yeah I'll always be waiting for you Yeah I'll always be waiting for you Yeah I'll always be waiting for you For you, I will always be waiting
And it's you that I see, But you don't see me And its you, that I hear, So loud and so clear I sing it loud and clear And I'll always be waiting for you
So I look in your direction, And you pay me no attention, And you know how much I need you But you never even see me
it was Uncle Sam's birthday yesterday & i could have gone clubbing cos there were so many events last night but avalanche had a get-together & for the first time, Im & I were invited aft gyming in sch, i headed down to marina square to look for them bumped into quite a number of people on my way there. haha dinner was at spaggedis & i only had to order soup cos they had quite a bit of leftovers food was quite good, especially since they forced me not to pay. haha
xuan xuan was such a happy baby yesterday always smiling and laughing with dawn & peili playing with her but when it came to kok leong & peili's hubby, she cries not sure why she fears them but shi qiu's bf/fiance doesn scare her we proved that just yesterday. lol & everyone was very nice yesterday esp when im wasn't around they just didn't want me to feel left out, so nice of them
there was quite a chaos in the cinema theatre cos there were like 16 of us in total dawn was rather frustrated with the seat allocation & i volunteered to fetch Im when she reached so i was supposed to get the aisle seat the only problem was that my phone batt was flat so only yujiao would noe when she reached but we were seated so far away & i made a fool of myself when yujiao asked for the ticket cos i couldn't lip-read we laughed it off aft the show ended. lol
i sat in between obk & im i couldn't be happier for that matter :D
my phone was bombarded with sms-es aft i charged it & jenny actually saw me outside kenny roger's! if only my phone didn't die on me i miss tat woman
i let down my pride to ask him for a favour but i never received a reply cos he said he didn't bring his phone so who's phone did he used to text at the corridor? he could have lied & it bugged me still, i called him outta class to give whatever is his (except chasing daylights cos i havent finished reading it) then i realised i didn't take out the letter and the wrong notes i think he read it now i'll just have to see how it goes..
i think it's kinda funny, the process to get back to the old me i used to go to macs so often last year & here i am again i figured i need to complete my fyp by tonight without the temptation to sleep
kelvin told me so many things as we hung out at the esplanade with raymond things that i should have known a long time ago i didn't know the truth i didn't even know they knew but it's too late now though i teared upon hearing it & i let them flipped through my inbox of the sugar i once tasted sweet & the poem i made of all the songs that i sang in my head to him still it's too late
i just want to apologise again hopefully for the last time i wanna erase the old circle & draw a new one i just dunno how to start..
