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Sunday, June 17, 2007 { 1:01 am } ;
0 replieswow.
to think tat playing badly for a match wasnt enough, i had to receive a hate mail
YES. HATE MAIL.
i cant recall ever getting one. but no, the title of the e-mail wasnt hate mail, of course.
cos my sch team had a talk just now at KNC & i was pretty harsh cos i wanted to get it done & over with since we keep postponing them twice during camp & we werent able to hold it during trg due to lack of attandence olso.
i'm taking the mail constructively la but there are just some facts which aren't right & some of them are a realisation, exactly the point of a team talk just that i wished the points were given during the talk and not thru e-mail.
constructive ones:
1. not everyone is as bad as me as to lie to their parents la ah. tat was a stupid statement i gave vannessa & i cant blame her for going against the idea. that was the stupidest suggestion la! i cant believe tat came out from my mouth!
2. adaptation to the environment. smth i knew all along actually, but something to re-butt against it too.
3. venue! its a make do thingi. definately not the best place to be in to hold a talk but rebuttal ahead.
4. maybe i'm trying to hard for the a lot of changes at a short period of time. rebuttal ahead.
my defence(there's gonna be a lot):
1. let's start with venue. we really need to make-do with the place since everyone would be there for the match. we were supposed to hold it twice before but there wasnt full attendance. i fully understand my captain's frustrations for the attendance at the camp.
2. the time was not supposed to be DURING the match. CHECK first la aiyoh. it was to be after the match but it was a walkover and some of them had to rush off so hence we needed to do it seemingly, during the match time. why? cos we dunno when we'll get the full attendance next. honestly.
3. i have said time and again, my aim when i got back onto the team was to build up the teamwork. i didnt feel in since the beginning but its got better now with the agreement of our captain. i believe in taking actions rather then watch things to happen & hence i seem to make a lot of changes & kinda seem as if i'm leading. I'm sorry i gave tat feeling actually but honestly i'm not fighting for captaincy & i dun aim for ppl to like me. my aim is to make the change & win tat medal. i think its pretty clear and simple but it needs a lot of cooperation from everyone.
so 3 & 4 is tat i'm not trying to win ur votes to lead cos my votes goes to naz still! & i'm not trying to fit in cos i really dun need anyone to like me.
5. maybe i'm quite a perfectionist so i want things to be as fine as it could be so we can get tat medal. maybe cos i know we only have POL-ITE to look at since IVP is gonna be very tough to fight for. but we dun have a yr to make things work out. there's exactly 30 days left till our first match and that is a very short period knowing tat we have trgs only twice a wk. if action is not taken, we might just prepare to say goodbye to the medal. & its not bronze tat i'm eyeing at, as hosts of the games, i hope we can top the table then let the whole school population to know tat we still exist and can produce results! my secret goal for the team is to win the team of the year for the next Glitz.
so far haha & nab neutralised thru msn. but this is only a few and not majority. i'm just disappointed these are not being said during the talk since there are points in which the writer said she has ppl who shared the same sentiments.
its just that this is not just a game to me anymore. i play to win but i dun play this game alone.
best thing is tat the conclusion/continuation of it is on mon, before my critical match. i'm very afraid i'll be affected by it & dun perform again during the match. i need to sacrifice but i'm not sure which i shld do so since both are equally important.
woah. its getting colourful now ey.
