sports. netball. avalanche. ausKISS
the usual usuals. bedtime stories.
my charlie's angels.
obk. aunty nanny.
adam brody. beckham.
pretty boys. funny geeks. & sexy bald men.
limegreen. lavender. orange.
black & white. retro.
fluent english. psychology.
my digi camera. pixels of my life.
i had the cough & a bit of sore throat from hanging out with naz when i skipped anatomy last mon. she was having fever, cough & blocked nose. by wednesday, i had a slight fever when i was out in town with linie & fidah. i was pretty scared my cough would worsen cos i had a match the following day. jenny told me to go to the doc the following morning but it was prescription la so no more skipping cos i did so once & she gave me a C alr. but yeah, thank god she reminded me we were to have lab the next day. i have nice frens.
unless i skip her class tmr. HAHA! but tat means she has more reason to tekan me. Nyeh. i need more As.
BLOODY C-MOTION PROGRAM! i dunno how to work the freaking thing for a stupid report i have to do la. & the dateline's on tuesday. i've only got the weekends free.
unless i'm crazy enough to ask alex on monday then get the report done tat night. shucks.
Haha wants to meet to figure it out, but i'm not sure whether we'll be able to do so still. lol
I just wanna vent my frustrations here now first. I'll return when i have time to blog. Plenty to say, just very limited time.
Gosh. I’m such a disappointment lately. Or I’ld say, the disappointment has returned, for today at least.
I thought we would have to present in the form of a skit or video u see but I was taken aback when it was to be the norm. It was quite a trigger in the morning to have heard compliments for the class next door. Not much participation cos nothing much to say, & I didn’t really wanna laugh too much unnecessarily. My group wasn’t all too happy as previous weeks. But I wasn’t happy with them either esp when I got blamed for not thinking hard enough for their part. Well, I did give them cues on what to look on, but yeah, jenny was rather disappointed I couldn’t quite answer her through IM. I felt rather bad when she said she was gonna cry. I felt that ‘pang’ feeling suddenly. & I got it again when we were being questioned. My mind was in disarray and I couldn’t even explain properly. Gosh, you knew the all the right answers girl! Word of the day: Common Sense!
But yeah, class didn’t end in a good note. I just feel like a disappointment although I don’t see myself being a nutritionist in the future, I might just have to include that in my prescription. & doing a very long RJ didn’t really make matters any better. Let’s just hope its not a C.
Genevieve wrote in her comments : "Great participation though it was mentioned many times before. Lots of enthusiasm... "
Mentioned many times before. wow. I'm surprised. I mean, i had my suspicions aft the incident at the cafe but i thought it was just my paranoia. & it was her first time taking my class tat day.
Can i say i'm happy i'm being mentioned among the facis? heh. cos it's rather the opposite while i was in hai sing where i was quite infamous with the tchers with my horrible academic results but excelling in sports & leadership.
& well, i wanna keep it tat way. am gonna work hard for my UT to push my GPA higher then.
Like anyone would be I am flattered by your fascination with me Like any hot-blooded woman I have simply wanted an object to crave But you, you're not allowed You're uninvited An unfortunate slight
Must be strangely exciting To watch the stoic squirm Must be somewhat heartening To watch shepard meet shepard But you you're not allowed You're uninvited An unfortunate slight
Like any uncharted territory I must seem greatly intriguing You speak of my love like You have experienced love like mine before But this is not allowed You're uninvited An unfortunate slight
I don't think you unworthy I need a moment to deliberate
*yes. u came at the wrong time. or simply, you're just wrong
SHL got through to the Finals for both Basketball & Netball!
& we lived up to the name of our school- BOTH TEAMS TOOK FIRST PLACE! WEEE!!
I'm so proud of us la. hehe.
we're expected to win 6 out of 8 of the BRAG games and we did our part.
anw, it'll be such an embarassment if we didn't get top cos we have school players taking most positions for both teams.
But my applause would be for both Nigel & Naz for leading the team although the guys were like so new to us & it was tough to make decisions of which player to put in first. esp Nigel who was so anxious bout the first game esp tat he couldnt sleep the night before cos he really wanted us to win.
but both games, first with SIT where abby, Nab & Hong Yuan were the main players and the finals with SAS with Lydia, Vannessa, Yong Jun, Roystan, Faqir & Nan (until the knee injury) were the key players, SHL scored a minimum 20 point (36 for finals. YEAH!). Nigel set the game rather fast but i was very impressed by Natheniel & Saket who played defence well. Nat really read the ball well with interceptions la!
We were the special team with Nigel's reversible bibs & games with us would be ones which had both teams cheer together for each other and also the umpires. It was sad support was very little for us from our school cos everyone else supported the 'underdogs'.
Speaking of which, i asked Jenny to watch us play after her meeting at 5.30 based on Naz's request after she dropped by her class after lesson. she gave a silly excuse (which was rather valid la except when she showed us her wallpaper) that she had to feed her dog. but she said she might drop by if she decides to take a cab home. i was quite surprised to see her & Eliza at the stands at 5.40, just when we wanted to start warm-up & the 3rd & 4th placing match just started.
She called me over & told me to win the match cos she decided to take the cab home. i learnt my lesson from the bball match for SHL Cup so i didnt promise anything. Then she asked why i wasnt playing for the match & i told her the match was at 6.15 la. Gosh, u shld have seen her face! I told her a ridiculous idea of going home to feed her dog then coming back again and she told me to pay for her cab fare since 'you're working', she said. i just shrugged and went for warm-up at the other court. I wasnt sure if i should be surprised to see both her and eliza gone by the time we went back to the court to prepare ourselves for the finals. Thankfully i wasnt too distracted by her absence but i must say it was a good game missed. I love 'Remember the Titans', the movie we watched before turning in during camp. & i was caught surprised by an e-mail from Jenny that was of a very funny clip. i was more surprised i was the student she sent the e-mail to actually. i slept fine that night, but i felt the pressure to perform when i couldn do so due to, what i believe is burnout. there was no drive, i missed timings & i couldn stand the fact that i was being reprimanded every time & 'some people' didnt. i'm no longer at comfort but i felt better talking it out to nab, haha & naz more so the latter two since i spoke on psych terms. I'm not sure how to bring it up to Mr Tony, especially in crucial times when POL-ITE draws closer. But i must say, the old me was more driven than the current one. The medal is important, but i say it with no emotions.
I never knew perfection ‘til I heard you speak, and now it kills me Just to hear you say the simple things Now waking up is hard to do And sleeping’s impossible too Everything’s reminding me of you What can I do?
It’s not right, not OK Say the word it should say Maybe we’re better off this way? I’m not fine, I’m in pain It’s harder everyday Maybe we’re better off this way? It’s better that we break…
A fool to let you slip away I chase you just to hear you say You’re scared and that you think that I’m insane I see you look so nice from here Pity I can’t see it clearly While you’re standing there, it disappears It disappears
It’s not right, not OK Say the word it should say Maybe we’re better off this way? I’m not fine, I’m in pain It’s harder everyday Maybe we’re better off this way? It’s better that we break up
Saw you sitting all alone You’re fragile and you’re cold, but that’s all right Life these days is getting rough It knocks you down and beats you up But it’s just a rollercoaster anyway, yeh
It’s not right, not OK Say the word it should say Maybe we’re better off this way? I’m not fine, I’m in painIt’s harder everyday Maybe we’re better off this way? I’m not fine, not OKSay the word it should say Maybe we’re better off this way? I’m not fine, I’m in pain It’s harder everyday Maybe we’re better off this way? It’s better that we break, baby
maybe wat paula says is true. me having to talk so much bout my facis sound kinda scary. lesbian tendency, she said. that, i firmly disagree. i am as straight as my future needs it. & i look up to my facis like i do my idols. just tat i tend to do so with my guides maybe, but i'm always a step closer to my teachers than others.. cos i treat them like my friends actually, something some do not feel comfortable doing maybe.
so it may sound scary, or uncomfortable but i do not have ill intentions. its smth i seek comfort in besides netball & the ppl in it.
