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obk. aunty nanny.
adam brody. beckham.
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Saturday, October 27, 2007 { 12:05 am } ; 0 replies
i'm recovering. Thankfully. i've got so many things going on this 3 weeks.
pp.yellow ribbon netball trainings & carnival.avalanche.hippotours.baby shower.captain's ball.meetings for tennis IG training programme.meeting for OBS trip.betting against soccer girls.& of course cafe del mar!
monday was the toughest. tears were on the brink of flowing but there's nothing to cry about. i'm in repair; i'm not together but i'm getting there.
& i dunno why but i really miss tat woman. it's the sarcasm maybe. but maybe i noe;she's the one that can get me geared up again, back to my usual self.but i'm getting there soon. getting my grades back up, but still i kept being late. hahaha.
shit. dun get me started bout why i was always early in the start of the sem. haiz..
met my aunty Nina at mr lincoln's party last night. i couldnt be bothered to be in other conversations. just 1 word for tat night: sinful.
scheming.
& ladies! Cafe Del Mar on the 3rd! Lex cant make it but we'll make do with 7 of us. too bad i cant party the night away but we'll have a blast! re-celebrate everyone's bdae! HAH!
i think my life is in disarry again. i'm seriously not Healthy. haha. in at least 2 aspects. gosh..
i'm going crazy soon cos i havent started on my PP! i gave the interview questions to peili like 2 weeks ago & i'm gonna get the answers only next week! without the answers, i cant start because the website didnt provide me much information. its not even updated since 2002 & the other website on the balloon doesn cover much either so really, if i'm allowed to talk to Chief over coffee i think my PP would be completed! just once! Haiz..
My PP supervisor, Han Chow (i noe, weird name) has been very nice to me & i don't wanna fail him & i don't want him to fail my for my project either. i'm supposed to e-mail him about my progress by this week & i cant tell him i've only done the content page so far rite? I think i might need to skip class next week just to get it done since the dateline is 1st Nov!!!! Arghhh!!
Classes has been ok so far. I'm getting just 1 A per wk on average & i'm not very happy with this actually. i knew having to please male facis isn easy. & honestly, the modules are very general & boring. but i still wanna increase my GPA.
did i mention i wasnt picked to go to Thailand for the SEA Games? only Eugene & saket's going. Eugene deserves it for being our school scholar but Saket shld be re-assessed. Just cos he holds the position of president, he doesn deserve the trip, let alone the respect of being president. i didnt asked that woman if she did send in the vote for me but well, the answers are out now rite?
anw, i think i'm quite a heartbreaker. its just that i dun like to layan ppl i dun wanna layan to lead them on or smth u noe. i mean, c'mon this boy's a flirt! i'm definitely not the first person he likes & he's probably thinking that i love his chase. but seriously, calling me sayang when u just got to know me personally makes me disgusted actually.
& to you whom i've liked, wondered & missed so much in the past 2 weeks at least, i dunno how i'm supposed to feel & act towards u. it's been, or maybe still is,a physical attraction. but u're no longer pursuing i think. u really left me hanging boy. i noe its not love, but i think/thought of you everyday. & u're making me lead such an unhealthy life with all the ice-creams & chocolates i've eaten just to make me feel better. they are my aprodisiacs, sweets. do u get it now?
it may take some time to patch me up inside i cant take it so i run away & hide
i need to shape my life again i need to run i need to write i wanna read i wanna dance i dun wanna feel now & like wat 'one of the facis' wrote: eat, drink, don't think! HAH!
Relaku menunggumu seribu tahun lama lagi Tapi benarkah hidup aku akan selama ini Biar berputar utara selatan ku tak putus harapan Sedia setia
Relaku mengejarmu seribu batu jauh lagi Tapi benarkah kaki ku-kan tahan sepanjang jalan ini Biar membisu burung bersiulan terlelah gelombang lautan Ku masih setia
Adakah engkau yakin... ini cinta Adakah engkau pasti... ini untuk selama-lamanya
Relaku menunggumu seribu tahun lama lagi Tapi benarkah hidup aku akan selama ini... yeah... Biar berputar utara selatan ku tak putus harapansedia setia Jangan putus harapan... sedia setia......
kelip-kelip disangka api,kalau api mana puntungnya?, hilang ghaib di sangka mati,kalau mati mana kuburnya?
10 days that i've been going to sch on my own that is. well, it was easier in the beginning but lately, i wished i'll bump into him at the bus-stop, on the bus or at the interchange.
i guess i was just waiting for the gf to come back from europe last mon. i was waiting for him to settle things between them. but i think he already did. he's probably made his decision.
i shunned away as a test. i did so so as to not get myself hurt. he failed. & maybe i failed him. but i alr feel the pain. it shld never have started. he was untouchable.
a physical attraction to your smile today. & there was a wisp of your cologne before dinner with my class. i miss your presence.
gue rindu bangat sama kamu; tapi kamu masih berpunya kan?
I finally got my own laptop fixed. There was smth wrong with my keyboard & I had to borrow the sch’s tablet to do my work. But trust me, tablet is not as fun as we all think k. now I understand why That woman finds bringing one around such an chore cos its no fun & it can be irritating at times.
But well, so many things happened while my laptop is down & now, I don’t feel like explaining cos I’ve done so to too many ppl. All I can say now is that I may have been a bitch throughout last week what with the flirting, hands-holding, touches & probable kisses. & it took just one person, for That Woman, to just see us not doing anything but just physically together, to make me feel awfully guilty. She gave me the benefit of the doubt, but remembering what she would do if I made the wrong move made me realize that dwelling in a triangle with him is not worth the friendships I’ve made with others. & thankfully, I haven’t fallen for him so deeply so it was easy to ignore him though it feels a lil weird not hearing my phone ring. But then again, I got my independence back! Weee!!!
I don’t mind if he’s single or anything, but surprisingly, I have options to choose from. HAH! but I don’t want another ‘mouse’ incident.
To everyone I ran to & lent me a listening ear & ur valued advises, thank you so much! Love u all! But to Fadz, thank you for being there for me everytime I needed to squeal with glee or whine about him wherever I was. & to get along well with him & then gave me your advise so to not see me hurt in the end. I love you many many!
The Click Five-Jenny She calls me baby Then she won't call me Says she adores me The And then ignores me Jenny... What's the problem?
She keeps her distance Click And sits on fences Looks up resistance And build defenses Jenny...What's the problem?
You leave me hanging on the line Everytime you change your mind
First you say you won't Then you say you will You keep me hanging on And we're not moving on I'm standing still Jenny You've got me on my knees Jenny... It's killing me
She needs her own space She's playing mind games, End up at my place Saying that she's changed Jenny... What's the problem?
I'm trying to read between the lines And got me going out of my mind
First you say you won't Then you say you will You keep me hanging on And we're not moving on The I'm standing still Jenny You've got me on my knees Jenny... It's killing me It's killing me It's killing me Jenny...
First you say you won't Then you say you will You keep me hanging on And we're not moving on I'm standing still Jenny You've got me on my knees Jenny...
First you say you won't Then you say you will You keep me hanging on And we're not moving on We're standing still Jenny You've got me on my knees Jenny... It's killing me It's killing me Jenny...
It's weird how i can relate to a song which title is the name of my fav faci. But i'm playing see-saw.
But thank god, everyone is telling me to stay away from him. Mutual consensus. Makes decisions easier. & after seeing THAT woman at the interchange before such on Tue,I realized it's not worth compromising friendships for him. I've got many options now anw.
