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Saturday, October 20, 2007 { 4:01 pm } ;
0 repliesi think my life is in disarry again.
i'm seriously not Healthy. haha. in at least 2 aspects. gosh..
i'm going crazy soon cos i havent started on my PP! i gave the interview questions to peili like 2 weeks ago & i'm gonna get the answers only next week! without the answers, i cant start because the website didnt provide me much information. its not even updated since 2002 & the other website on the balloon doesn cover much either so really, if i'm allowed to talk to Chief over coffee i think my PP would be completed! just once! Haiz..
My PP supervisor, Han Chow (i noe, weird name) has been very nice to me & i don't wanna fail him & i don't want him to fail my for my project either. i'm supposed to e-mail him about my progress by this week & i cant tell him i've only done the content page so far rite? I think i might need to skip class next week just to get it done since the dateline is 1st Nov!!!! Arghhh!!
Classes has been ok so far. I'm getting just 1 A per wk on average & i'm not very happy with this actually. i knew having to please male facis isn easy. & honestly, the modules are very general & boring. but i still wanna increase my GPA.
did i mention i wasnt picked to go to Thailand for the SEA Games? only Eugene & saket's going. Eugene deserves it for being our school scholar but Saket shld be re-assessed. Just cos he holds the position of president, he doesn deserve the trip, let alone the respect of being president. i didnt asked that woman if she did send in the vote for me but well, the answers are out now rite?
anw, i think i'm quite a heartbreaker. its just that i dun like to layan ppl i dun wanna layan to lead them on or smth u noe. i mean, c'mon this boy's a flirt! i'm definitely not the first person he likes & he's probably thinking that i love his chase. but seriously, calling me sayang when u just got to know me personally makes me disgusted actually.
& to you whom i've liked, wondered & missed so much in the past 2 weeks at least, i dunno how i'm supposed to feel & act towards u. it's been, or maybe still is,a physical attraction. but u're no longer pursuing i think. u really left me hanging boy. i noe its not love, but i think/thought of you everyday. & u're making me lead such an unhealthy life with all the ice-creams & chocolates i've eaten just to make me feel better. they are my aprodisiacs, sweets. do u get it now?
it may take some time to patch me up inside
i cant take it so i run away & hide
i need to shape my life again
i need to run
i need to write
i wanna read
i wanna dance
i dun wanna feel now
& like wat 'one of the facis' wrote:
eat, drink, don't think! HAH!
