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Thursday, January 31, 2008 { 1:17 am } ;
0 replies HEY MAMBO! MAMBO ITALIANO!
lol.
okay. fine. they didn't play that song for mambo night but it was definitely great fun! i think i was superrr exciteddd when they played the medley for Grease. I'VE GOT CHILLS THEY'RE MULTIPLYING! hahaha. but phuture was packed as usual. the crowd wasn't so fun, but i realised i'm of the very few tanned ones in the club. HAH!
& i seriously think the service at the bar SUCKS! they took their own sweet time to get our orders since it's one-on-one before midnight. in the end, a miscommunication with a sweet stranger got us drinks but i still feel guilty. :S
cam-whoring session is a must to set a pre-clubbing mood. -with abby & joey
& the cab driver on our way back cheated me! he drove the longer route while i slept at the back seat. damn, i shouldn have drank.
i woke up at like 9 just now since i've decided not to go for lesson. but of course i have to be in school for lunch! i was the one who organised and told others to turn up in sch & i only appeared just before 2nd break-out. & a cute-looking boy was the first face i saw in the corridors of E2 Level 5. & the best thing was, he smiled and said hi as he walked towards the corridors of my class. i bet i would be giggling away if it was to happen in Sem 1 but i just returned a confused expression and a quick smile as a reply. it was just weird to see him walk towards my corridor instead of the opposite way. no, no i don't enjoy bumping into him even when he's alone. but especially so when he's with his companion cos i think they know. she'll give me the evil eye..
so lunch; W4 canteen, 5 facis & 10 students, all coincidentally seated according to gender and position. HAH! but yes, i'm lucky we had a conversation over lunch over many things but the best topic would be about pregnancy and birth! hah. jacqueline told us about her cesarean - how small the cut was and how much they stretch the cut for the baby to be out. "OUCH!" we cried. placentas became a hot topic suddenly after eliza asked jacq what she did with hers. apparently someone at the table doesn't mind placentas as their food. hahaha. i just find it hilarious.
DSES (from left): jenny, eliza, eunice, mr tham, adzim, suhaimi, ivor, najib, saket, russell, dinie, fad, hid, naz, jacqueline & me!
& i drew such an ugly picture of myself to the one i look up to with the attitude i have towards school. i know she's got a good impression of me as her student, but that was last semester and of course, it's cos of her classes. (& did i mention she saw me at the cafe during the 1st meeting on monday? thank god she's nice; she was just about meet the program chair of my diploma at the cafe too but she didn't get us busted.) how i wish i could take it back, all my actions in sem 2. still, it was a bittersweet experience. i'm to blame for not picking myself up fast enough after the fall. 
me, jenny, naz & eliza
but still lunch was nice. thanks to adzim for suggesting it. and to all who turned up for the lunchdate. jenny has expressed her gratitude for the gathering too. well, that could have been the last time jenny and eliza would dine in with us under the contract of being our guides in school. & eunice scared me with her experience with achilles tendinitis which she had to go for a surgery, so i've fixed a doc appt at CGH on the 26th feb.
while the rest rushed for class, naz & I got tickets for SWEENEY TODD for dude & najib olso. it should have been lydia, J & haha with us but they cant make it & i really didn't have any plans since i've decided to not go for class so the movie was a must. i would have gone with steff since i knew she was awaiting the movie too but the offer came earlier. so sorry!! but i havent watched 27 dresses so we're equal. hah
cats in the cradle was really good! we sat along orchard rd as we plan to chill in indochine@wisma one day during the holz. i would suggest partying after chilling out there though. haha. yes, partyy partyy.
do u know? u haunt me now.
everywhere i go,
i see the steps u took; with me
& i remember the many smiles i cry for now
Monday, January 28, 2008 { 7:17 pm } ;
0 repliesi know i havent been blogging. i didnt intend to return back to this page actually but dearest Linie do come back to read. oh well, i'll try to do so again ya. hahaha.
no prizes for the correct guess to another reason why i'm here again; i'm bored. can u imagine? i've got no solid plans for the day after sch. tat is so not like Wany.
i've been a total wreck this whole semester - have been coming late to class still & i make no effort to make it in time to class most times. super boring modules that i've got but my attitude towards school was worse after
TAT (like i said in my previous entry, i aint gonna talk bout it anymore). & oh! i guess i was a little affected by the decisions of Jenny, Eliza & Jacqueline to leave sch. i've got no older peer to turn to for advise or for a bitching session. well, not regularly tat is. they might be AA next academic yr.
i was reading my own profile & i realised i wrote that i like
'sexy bald men'. really, not all guys can carry off a bald head. if if they could, i'll be hots for them. good examples would of course be David Beckham, Rio Ferdinand, Brad Pitt & even Tommy from dragonboat although he's more cute than hot. but then again, tommy's untouchable ya. will not go through another round of being a bitch. so yeah, all TAT boy look like is a cancer boy going through chemotheraphy with the beanie after we were back from the most recent holz. hahaha. i'm evil, but truth hurts baby. like how it hurt me.
okayy. enough with the sarcasm, wany. i'm dying for an iPod now can?! either classic or nano cos i wanna finish watching L Word, i'm still onto season 1. but i need to take my BEC first! KAREN ALREADY PASSED HERS!!!!! WTF! no more procrastination alr, need to take it asap.
& oh! i'll be going to boiler's room in st james again on 15th feb. join me if u're free cos there isnt tat many going ya. tat reminds me, i still havent had my bdae partyy that was supposedly postponed last yr. hmmmmm....
playing in my head:-semuanya telah berakhir; antara hati ku & hati mu;takkan ada cinta seperti yang dulu
Wednesday, January 16, 2008 { 1:24 am } ;
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goodbye love; i'll welcome back an old friend
It’s been 2 months. Yes, silly of me to remember that I wore exactly the same outfit 2 months ago on the same date. But I remember, because that was the day I lost it, that I got myself lost in goals, emotions and directions for weeks after that. & after I ended it all, I thought I was fine. I tried so hard to make it ok, but I’m volatile and inexperienced. I thought I knew just what to do, on how to treat you, or myself even. But only till today that I knew.
Called me a bitch and it really didn’t help. What I needed was a steady answer to how things should be after the mistake and what I got was confusion with people telling me to treat him differently. I’ve tried. I’ve tried it all; to be a friend & also the bitch with only caustic remarks at the tip of the tongue. Still it didn’t feel right somehow. Intense was the description used by an observer.
I’ve decided to take on the bright side of things. Part of me says that I should stand up for women’s rights but I’ll keep it till the last strike. I shall take it as an experience. It’s a lesson learnt but life goes on. I don’t wanna be reminded of this memory unless I chance upon something similar but with hopes not to, of course.
Let it be a scar, a numb one. So please, I’ll appreciate it if this issue is not spoken of again.
Lesson Learned - Alicia Keys (feat. John Mayer)
He broke my heart
And now it's raining
Just to rub it in
I'm at your door
I feel so crazy about it
You'll say I told you so
You saw it long ago
You knew he had to go
I finally came 'round
I'm back on solid ground
Can't let it get me down
It's alright
It's alright
It's alright
(Chorus)
Yes I was burned but I called it a lesson learned
Mistake overturned So I call it a lesson learned
My soul has returned So I call it a lesson learned
Another lesson learned
Sometimes
Some lies
Can take a minute
To fully realize
His tears
Your eyes
Thirty seconds to apologize
You give it one more chance
Just like the time before
But he already know
You'd give a hundred more
Until that night in bed
You wake up in a sweat
You're racing to the door
Can't take it anymore
(Chorus)
Life perfect
Ain't perfect
If you don't know what the struggle's for
Falling down ain't falling down
If you don't cry when you hit the floor
It's called the past cause I'm getting past
And I ain't nothing like I was before
You ought to see me now
(Chorus 2x)
