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Wednesday, August 27, 2008 { 10:18 pm } ;
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sometimes,
i miss having someone who waits for me
after class, training or even work.
sometimes,
i long for someone to run to
for a cuddle when i'm feeling a little blue,
for hands which would hold mine to keep them warm,
for a shoulder for me to lean on when i'm weary,
to have someone to listen to me rant about what happened in the day,
& to have good conversations about everything under the sun.
sometimes,
just sometimes..
it's the time of the year. such fragility in this quarter.
maybe it's the song la. blame it on death cab for cutie.
but i can't believe i'm listening to their christmas song, in august?!
OH GOSH! WAKE UP WANY! 3.3 wasn't what you wanted!
i shall chant 3.5 everyday now to remind me of my GPA.
click below to view my grades.
i'm surprised i didn't get a C
especially for adventure learning
which i had skipped 4 lessons
& i'm quite satisfied with my results since i know i wasn't gonna score
& i'm very happy for the B+ i got for my FYP too.
now the maximum i can get is 3.42,
that's if i get all As for all 5 modules!
not impossible, it's just very very difficult to achieve :)
the class allocation is not officially out yet
but i've checked out my classmates for next semester
4 classes for my 4 modules
so many new faces, yr 2s esp
i'm even in a class of yr 2s & the only other senior is karno
& since he's also almost always late for school,
i hope we can be best friends!
WAKAKAKAKA!
whatever it is, i just hope i'll be able to stay focused this semester
& finish school on a good note
& but please do not be mistaken, i do not miss him.
Saturday, August 23, 2008 { 1:32 pm } ;
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i felt like a child again, awed by the amazing fireworks display which i caught on the DUCK last night. my training got cancelled due to the 7th month dinner at the court. i was too tired anyway but Gia got my energy back again. she's hilarious on board! so fun although all of us were locals. & coincidentally, an old primary school teacher of mine sat on the same DUCK. she was known as ms evelyn teo. i forgot to ask for her current surname. still, it was a pleasant surprise cos she was with her hubby & her 2 year-old daughter. but i felt happy yesterday. there was a certain joy attained after the fireworks. i couldn't help but smile to myself as i walk to the train station alone.
& there's more fireworks tonight but i'm at work while watching. hopefully it'll be as good as last night. so i can smile like an idiot again..
if u could just take your chances..
Wednesday, August 20, 2008 { 1:43 pm } ;
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yay! i've passed my FINAL THEORY Test so i can be behind the wheels sooonnn!! the best damn thing was that i only got hold of the book at 1.30pm that very day to study. but i sat alone at Starbucks listening to Death Cab, learning the dos & don'ts in driving prior to the test. i wasn't very sure of the time of my test actually so i ended up at the CDC at around 4pm, 2 hours early! hahaha. i'm amazed that some ppl actually finished the test in like 10-15min but i refrained from hitting the finish button too early so i could check through my answers before submitting. i was super relieved when i saw the word 'PASSED' on the screen. hehe
but i've yet to get my PDL & contact my instructor. but i hope to get my QDL within 6 months! so i can drive around to all the many places i wanna go like dempsey hill, the oldest bus stop & also drive my frens out for supper! heh! :D
Sunday, August 17, 2008 { 1:42 am } ;
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to all the superwomen out there, stay strong & we'll fly one day
xoxo
Superwoman - Alicia Keys (As I Am)Everywhere I'm turningNothing seems completeI stand up and I'm searchingFor the better part of meI hang my head from sorrowSlave to humanityI wear it on my shouldersGotta find the strength in meCause I am a Superwoman
Yes I am
Yes she is
Still when I'm a mess
I still put on a vest
With an S on my chest
Oh yes
I'm a Superwoman For all the mothers fightingFor better days to comeAnd all my women, all my women sitting here tryingTo come home before the sunAnd all my sistersComing togetherSay yes I willYes I canCause I am a SuperwomanYes I amYes she isStill when I'm a messI still put on a vestWith an S on my chestOh yesI'm a SuperwomanWhen I'm breaking down
And I can't be found
And I start to get weak
Cause no one knows
Me underneath these clothes
But I can fly
We can fly, Oooohh
Cause I am a SuperwomanYes I amYes she isStill when I'm a messI still put on a vestWith an S on my chestOh yesI'm a Superwoman
video: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xK8t0gP4isE
Thursday, August 14, 2008 { 2:29 am } ;
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watching the soccer boys play against the chinese dalian s-league team made us hungry..
but after dinner at Lau Pa Sat..
we had big pusat!
haha. kidding.
we just had a bigger pouch.
& the one carrying the baby is sven instead of nab! lol.
oh boy! i love that dress. don't you?
Wednesday, August 13, 2008 { 11:44 pm } ;
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My RJ question: Based on the comments made from Problem 1 to 15, how much have you grown?
& yes, another 16 weeks has passed for semester and 6 months went by like a breeze although it wasn’t as smooth as I expected. In fact, my grades this semester are really gonna pull my grades down to a 3 probably. All because I got off track from my initial goals and I didn’t have enough motivation to get back on gear.
Change is the most constant thing, but it is a choice between good and bad. I went through morphing once again and although the process seemed steady, the results turned out ugly. I do not like the feeling, or the absence of feelings or emotions. I feel dead, empty inside. It’s been so long since I felt ecstasy or simply being truly happy about something. My laughter have just been for short bouts, I smile only when necessary and I snap easily. I can’t always blame the hormones but I just dunno where the fault lies.
Yes, I’ve build a wall around my heart again and vowed not to let just anyone touch it for fear of being hurt. I do not want to settle for anyone other than Mr Right. I’m trying not to think of a chance of a Mr Right Now. But why can’t I still be HAPPY like I used to with all that I have now?
I said I changed and I did. I think lesser of the boy for being more than a friend, but ponders why he treats me worse than others (in that I mean other (girl) friends or even classmates). I don’t bug myself with the thought, just occasionally. I’m working every other day and training 3x a week. This means I hardly go out, or rather no one asks me out to socialize. An added factor to that is my phone which runs out of battery so fast that no one can reach me unless it’s charging before I leave my home or once I’m back. So I became distant from the people around me, that the only person/people I’m seen hanging out with are Naz, Haha & J. I lose touch even before leaving the school and that’s BAD! But when I step back and look at the situation, I question myself, “is it me? did I not initiate enough? or am I really forgotten easily?”
I guess alot of us changed throughout the semester. The cliques grew stronger even as we meet new people and make more friends. I began to see where i stand, presently and probably in the future. but who am i to say this, i can't tell what the future holds. All I know is that I should enjoy every moment as if it's my last with people who truly care. But in contrary, I need to carry out my plans for my future goals. I've yet to learn to balance this.
I guess I just need to learn to smile again.
& Ramadan month is coming, a day after the Nike+ Human Race! That also meant that Hari Raya is in 2 months and I need to revamp my room although hardly anyone visits or enters my room. I need to throw away all my sister's things including the gifts she got from her students (yes kids, do not spend so much on teacher's day gifts cos they might just end up in the bin. LOL!) and my textbooks tat i still keep thinking tat i'ld still need them (hell NO!). & i need to get a shoe rack, new sheets and frames to at least put up my printed poster of James Dean. heh. speaking of which, i'm trying to work my ass off to buy these stuffs plus put aside some for dinner with many many people in the fasting month. i so need to catch up with nina & lex, sarah(ciqken), the cookers and especially my jie YANG YANLING! i still owe her a birthday treat since april! we're both so busy tat we can only bump into one another. sheesh. i do miss a lot of people actually..
nvm, next month loves!
Sunday, August 10, 2008 { 12:45 am } ;
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i still have the SINGFEST fever even after a week after the event! it's just so surreal that Alicia Keys actually looked and smiled at us onstage. & Nicole Scherzinger is HOT, i swear! they were all breath-taking considering that they sounded exactly like those on records (except for pcd who were dancing tirelessly). i was extremely impressed by Jason Mraz for singing every word rather than saying it to us. these are people with REAL talent. no kidding. Travis - their guitarist was awesome! jason mraz & nicole with a big smile! the pussycat dolls strutting their stuff
i've even compiled all the songs that i have which they performed into a playlist. then i realised Alicia Keys sang 15 songs! no wonder i felt as though her performance was like an hour! & i'm proud to say i know almost every song and was able to sing and sway to them! LOL!so here's the list of her performance (not in order of performance):
- Go Ahead
- Heartburn
- Wreckless Love
- Falling
- You Don't Know My Name
- Karma
- How Come You Don't Call Me
- My Boo
- Superwoman
- Teenage Love Affair
- Woman's Worth
- Diary
- Unbreakable
- Like You'll Never See Me Again
- No One
the legendary queen of R&B does her magic with the keys of the piano
simply said, they were all stunning! not just in terms of beauty but also performance! they should have Coldplay, Justin Timberlake, The Killers & John Mayer at the next Singfest!
Saturday, August 02, 2008 { 12:23 am } ;
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i forced myself to swim at the rp splash
i can't swim for nuts! i'm a very land person! hahaha
dimple, naz & i were like at the side of the pool 'swimming'
& i had like different people advising me on how to swim properly la
cos my legs go really fast, tats why i tire out fast too
i tried to slow them down but maybe it's cos of the trauma of my near-drowning incident in johor last year
or maybe cos i'm just meant to be a sprinter, u noe? haha
jin offered a switch of IGs
us to life-saving so we can learn to swim, and her to netball
and after the many advises and the 18 laps we 'swam'
i was really considering taking up swimming lessons
then maybe one day, i'll be able to do the ironman like jacqueline olso. haha
but when?! Time!
and i skipped avalanche trg again. :x
Singfest Oh Singfest!